Fancy Pants HEAVEN!!

YUMMMMMMOOOOOO!!!!

I got the most gorgeous box of the 4 new lines that was released by Fancy Pants at CHA and let me just say that they are delightful!!! I of course espesially love the Little Sprout one!! Loads of Lily layouts coming up .... when I find the time of course haha.

Life has been busy busy busy. Putting account into my name, getting my concession card set up on my accounts and the biggest biggest job is trying to get a property settlement for our house. Holey moley, what a rollercoaster ride a separation is, as if the emotional turmoil isn't enough and being a single parent to two precious girls, one has to sort out all the other hoo-hah as well :( But I'm getting there, in my own time, and it will be good once it is done and I can get back to better things.

Talking of better things, I have been thinking and thinking (on orders from my psychologist of course) what I want to do with my future. Of course I had a future in mind, but seeing as that all got wiped away in one night, and I had no future in sight I had to go and work on a new one. And it doesn't necessarily look that bad. I can focus on 'me', not us, but what 'I' want and that is oh so noice!!!

So things i want to include in my future :)

1. A hang gliding excursion :)

2. A few handson photography sessions - thinking I might just start off with the light and easy Mum's and bubs workshop that Bluedog offers :) And I want to do the intermediate one and the dusk one too :)

3. Maybe go back and study, maybe counseling or tackle the rest of my psychology

4. Travel as much as I can overseas, I love to EXPLORE.

5. Swim with dolphins

6. Go on a sunset hotair balloon ride

7. Take dancing lessons

8. Enjoy every moment with my girls :)

Talk about a fun filled future

Anyways, talking about the joys that fill my days and keep my heart in one piece is this gorgeous monkey down below. Off to our weekly swim lesson! She is doing so well, we hit a plateau for ages and ages and I was considering pulling her out of swimming for a while as she just wasn't progressing and then one day something 'snapped' and she started progressing again woohooo. She is slowly turning into a gorgeous swimming mermaid :) doesn't she look ADORABLE with her cap and goggles?? :)


And a layout that I did just before my world turned upside down. Using amazing Fancy Pants goodies. I stamped Lily's hand on the layout too. Do you know how tricky it is to get a newborn to open up her hand to stamp it??? I was going to do one on her feet too, with some stamped feet, but that never happened, guess there is nothing stopping me from doing one now with her three month feet hey?

Well that is it for me. Friday nights and weekends are just DREADFUL, but I try to make the most of it by being around family and going out an about, thanks for all my prayers, good thoughts, vibes of strength and of course those warm snuggly hugs!!! Each one of you are helping me through this journey that life decided to throw my way!! And I appreciate the time each of you have taken to send me messages!!

I'm staying strong, but my heart is just broken and it sometimes feels so hard to face reality instead of telling myself that things will come right, he will see sense.

ANWAYS

HAPPY WEEKEND everyone!!!!

3 Month old beautiful little baby girl L

It blows my mind how quickly babies change. What happened to my newborn baby? This fatty boom-sticks girl I got is 100% baby now. Sooooo cute, but man I want it to SLOW DOWN!!!
But this little girl just fills my heart to the brim with love and joy!! I am so ultra lucky to have two such gorgeous perfect heatlhy little beauties.




For this month Lily has:

- moved from 000 size clothes to 00
- is just about ready to move onto the next size nappies which I think is crawler.
- gives me the MOST beautiful smiles and laughs, I love the eyes go all cheeky like and the little tong comes out when she is really happy, soooo cute!!
- She is doing lots more cooing, I can start having conversations with her hehe.
- She is still feeding every 2 hours in the day!!!
- She is still waking up for about 1 feed during the night, going down at around 10ish and getting back up around 7ish.
- She is really adding on weight with little roll on little roll on her legs, so cute though!
- She is so much more aware of life around her now and want to be part of all the fun and loves watching anything bright and pretty.
- She is slowly starting to get more aware of her control over her little hands and can kick furiously for minutes on end hehe
- She LOVES to bath and kick in the water
- Her hair is starting to grow out again and I think it is coming out slightly darker than it was before.
- You are slowly loosing your patience with your way to 'in your face' sister. She loves you to bits though and only mean well
- You are really strong and have ultra good head control when on your belly. You also love making your neck all stiff to try and sit up when there is commotion around you that you want to see.

You are such a friendly contented baby, love you to bits sweetheart!!!

We are doing a wee bit better so far this week, keeping praying for us and thanks so much for all the support stories and messages of encouragement!!!!!

So lonely :(

Man alive I have had such an incredibly lonely day. While I love my little girls company, it just isn't the same is it. Anyways we are slowly trying to adjust, although I think the pain is getting worse than better as the days go by. That brighter day will come eventually won't it??? It is all too painful atm, I'm still focusing on these girls, I'm so thankful for them, they keep me going through the day, cause I'm afraid that if it wasn't for them I would hide away under my blankets in my bed all day long, and I know that that is prob not the best way to recover and deal with my new life.

I just have sooooo many questions that I wish I could have answers for. I hate not understanding things, I hate not being able to reason things out. I hate looking at photos of us so young and so incredibly in love and wondering how the heck life could end up where it is now. I don't get it, I don't get anything and that in itself annoys the heck out of me and I get head aches from thinking about things all day long, trying to find a way to 'fix' it all, so that everything could be okay again :( And I know that I can't fix it, but it just doesn't stop my mind from trying to find a solution.

So keep praying really hard, for us girls but also for Leon as he does need guidance from up above for his future. Please pray REALLY hard.

Thanks so much for all the constant support!!!! You are ROCK!!

I have some more photos to share. My brother got married just over a month ago and we were so lucky to have them ask little Katie to be their ultra special flower girl for the day. She thought she was a princess, she took her roll so mega seriously, it was so ultra adorable to see. I think I just beamed with pride all day and night long!!
I think she made the prettiest flower girl EVER!!!

This was before the wedding, cause I couldn't manage taking photos and looking after a little baby, so decided to leave my camera behind and just enjoy the wedding ;)




And here is a photo of my other gorgeous girl. 12 weeks old here. She is such a good baby, man alive she makes my heart so warm and fuzzy. I just wish she wasn't growing as fast as she is, I would love for her to stay tiny for longer so i can enjoy every moment with what might be my last baby :( I love this girl to bits!!!!

Keep praying for us!!! And thanks so much for including us in your prayers, I can feel the power from up above giving me strength each day!

And before I go, just sharing a scrappy link. Bella Blvd released sneak peaks of their CHA releases and boy they look awesome, I'm totally loving the look of the 'flirty' line, check them out here - http://bellablvd.typepad.com/bella_blvd/2009/07/monday-peek-giveaway-whahoo.html . There is also a chance to win some of the new goodies, so if you are a scrapper, pop over and check out the details for that ;)

The three girls :)

Well we are slowly and painfully adjusting to life as just us three girls!! We are surviving!! But it takes loads of energy to keep my strength up and focus on doing fun things with the girls, but I am mega thankful for my beautiful healthy gogeous girls, they keep the smile on my face through this difficult time!!

THANKS SO MUCH to each and every single one of you who have left such unbelievably precious and motivational comments in my previous post! I was just BLOWN AWAY by the amount of support i got, and every time I read the comments it gave me just that wee bit more strength to keep on going and know that we will pull through! Thanks so very very much!!!

Onto more happy thoughts :) This is a layout I did ages ago for the June Show in Brisbane using gorgeous products from Addicted to Craft!! The DT have been sharing their work over on their blog, so make sure you stop by for some inspiration!!!


Yesterday we spent the day having tonnes of fun with one of our friends, photos to come soon :) When we got home we had some fun in the backyard with the camera, tripod and remote control :) So much fun!! I dropped my camera a few weeks back and broke the glass on my FAVOURITE lens, so I had to go and pull out one that I haven't used in AGES and give it a test run. Of course the cost to fix the lens will be more than what I paid for it, and I only bought it for myself at the start of this year!! How sad is that :(





Have a good thursday - It is almost weekend again!!!! :)

2 Month old little Lily

A quick update, mostly to record Lily's two month details. My life is upside down, my husband decided to leave us and is moving out, I'm barely coping with the pain, I never knew anything could hurt this badly. I'm ultra busy trying to cope with looking after the two girls by myself and battling very much to adjust to my new life, so if you pray, please pray for us as we need them desperately!!! I'm trying my best to be strong and put on a mask in front of Katie, but the pain seems to be slowly taking over my whole body. I was reading her a book tonight and in the middle just couldn't keep it in and just burst in tears. Poor Katie wanted to know why the book was so sad, poor monkey.

Leon took off his wedding ring and I swear somebody could just as well have ripped out my heart and ripped it into billions of pieces when I saw that. It hurt so incredibly much and I'm finding it a bit hard to understand, we have been married for almost 7 years and been together for 9, and he has his ring off a few weeks after he decides to leave us :(

ANYWAYS, this post is meant to be for Lily who turned 2 months on the 26th, she is turning into a little chubby babba.
A share from a fancy pants layout that I did ages and ages ago before my whole world collapsed.

and one of the few sunshines I have left in my life, this gorgeous little girl, who is just the most friendly smiley bubba ever, she is soooooo cute!!

So here are my records:

- Lily-belle smiling from about 4 weeks old

- Laughing from about 6 weeks old (so ultra cute!!!)

- Your tongue is still forever poking out, even when you smile hehe

- You are totally 'baby' now, and no more newborn, you have little rolls on your adorable little legs and arms, such a sweet chubby babba

- Your hair is falling out :( I find them all over on your bedding and little hats.

- Your eyes are still the most gorgeous grey colour

- You are slowly becoming more and more curious of the world around you

- You have been battling with more eye infections and also with a bad cough and blocked nose, poor girl. So I have the vaporiser on for you during the night which helps you.

- You are still feeding every 2 hours during the day, but it is all worthwhile when I get either a 6 hour block of sleep with one feed during the night, or even a sleep through from when I put you down around 9 till 6 in the morning, such a good girl!!

- You are still sleeping in a cot next to my bed.

- You have met your Oupa and Ouma from South Africa who have just fallen head over heels in love with you.

- You have been to your first wedding - Rudi and Candice, been to your first Wildlife Sanctuary outing - Currumbin Wildlife sanctuary.

- Katie is still in love with you and while she is a bit tooo rough and way tooo loud and in your face she loves you too bits and you love watching her too.

- And while your family is going through a seperation I promise to smother you in love and make sure you have the happiest life I can give you. My sweet baby!!!

Till later everyone!! Have a good weekend!