Leon took off his wedding ring and I swear somebody could just as well have ripped out my heart and ripped it into billions of pieces when I saw that. It hurt so incredibly much and I'm finding it a bit hard to understand, we have been married for almost 7 years and been together for 9, and he has his ring off a few weeks after he decides to leave us :(
ANYWAYS, this post is meant to be for Lily who turned 2 months on the 26th, she is turning into a little chubby babba.
A share from a fancy pants layout that I did ages and ages ago before my whole world collapsed.
A share from a fancy pants layout that I did ages and ages ago before my whole world collapsed.and one of the few sunshines I have left in my life, this gorgeous little girl, who is just the most friendly smiley bubba ever, she is soooooo cute!!
So here are my records:
- Lily-belle smiling from about 4 weeks old
- Laughing from about 6 weeks old (so ultra cute!!!)
- Your tongue is still forever poking out, even when you smile hehe
- You are totally 'baby' now, and no more newborn, you have little rolls on your adorable little legs and arms, such a sweet chubby babba
- Your hair is falling out :( I find them all over on your bedding and little hats.
- Your eyes are still the most gorgeous grey colour
- You are slowly becoming more and more curious of the world around you
- You have been battling with more eye infections and also with a bad cough and blocked nose, poor girl. So I have the vaporiser on for you during the night which helps you.
- You are still feeding every 2 hours during the day, but it is all worthwhile when I get either a 6 hour block of sleep with one feed during the night, or even a sleep through from when I put you down around 9 till 6 in the morning, such a good girl!!
- You are still sleeping in a cot next to my bed.
- You have met your Oupa and Ouma from South Africa who have just fallen head over heels in love with you.
- You have been to your first wedding - Rudi and Candice, been to your first Wildlife Sanctuary outing - Currumbin Wildlife sanctuary.
- Katie is still in love with you and while she is a bit tooo rough and way tooo loud and in your face she loves you too bits and you love watching her too.
- And while your family is going through a seperation I promise to smother you in love and make sure you have the happiest life I can give you. My sweet baby!!!
Till later everyone!! Have a good weekend!
76 comments:
Jolene, I am shocked and so sad to hear your news. I cant imagine what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your two gorgeous girls.
I am so sorry to hear of your of your news Jolene.. I hope things look up soon for you and your beautiful baby girls... my thoughts are with you.
WOW Jolene, I read your blog for quite some time now but never left a message.. But this one really needs one. I will have you in my prayers. It must be so hard for you to be all alone with your gorg. girls.
I never get it when someone decides to leave the other only short after having a baby. Stay though girl !!
Greetz and prayers from Holland
Mariska
I am so sorry and angry, what a jerk! You are probably better off without him! But i know two little girls that will forever want their daddy and i am sorry for that. Your girls are so so beautiful, lily has grown so much! Thank you for sharing your sadness, your blog friends are here for you :)
Jolene, I have been following your blog for quite some time but have never left a comment. I literally gasped when I read your post this morning. My heart just breaks for you. I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are definitely with you and your girlies. I pray that God brings comfort, peace, and strength to you right now.
Jolene, I am also a lurker of your blog but just wanted to say I am thinking of you and sorry to hear of your news. Just think, you have two precious little girls who will always be there to fill your heart with happiness :o)
Jolene, I visit your blog regularly, you're in my "favourites", but sadly I never leave a comment - today I need to.
Isn't it a shame that bad news is what takes us into action....
I am sorry to read of the selfishness of your husband, especially at such a time, what with a new baby, I was in your situation many years ago...
Life gets better without them, time is the healer, though you won't feel that now - I feel your pain....
You have two gorgeous daughters, who are the same ages as my granddaughters - my thoughts are with you xx
Same here~ lurker for long time to stop in your blog.
You have complete so many awesome pages etc.
You have 2 beautiful girls!
{sending you cyber tons of hugs}
Oh Jolene - another lurker here who felt she really must send you lots of hugs through this terrible time. You seem a very strong girl so I hope you can ride it out and your little family will come out (eventually) better for it.
Whith a little baby here of 13 weeks old, when I even try to understand how you must feel, I feel terrible! Many *mwah*'s en big hugs in this oh so hard time, for you three beautiful girls!
OMG you must be so exhausted all those feeds and late night tears...my heart goes out to you all the way from the UK xxx
You know off course that is exactly why they are called the weaker sex for reasons like yours!:)
Another lurker coming out of the woodwork.
I'm so, so sorry. I am sitting here almost in tears, feeling your pain :(
I don't know what to say, I wish I could give you a hug.
Hi Jolene,
I am so sorry, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful girls. I pray that you get strength and comfort over time.
(((((Big Hugs))))
Jolene -
I am so sorry. As I read your words, I let out an "Oh my god!", and tears rushed to my eyes. You don't know me, and I don't know you, but, I feel such a pain in my heart for you.
You're a beautiful soul, with two beautiful, beautiful angels! God bless you all through these hard times ahead.
Many hugs XOXO
Chevonne
Jolene, i am torn to pieces over your sadness. Its funny how you see people up on a pedestal and think "They have it all together", the photos you show on your blog and the love you show in your layouts, I cant believe this is happening to you of all people!!!
I don't know how you are coping from one day to the next, you must have an inner strength in you Jolene.... Something truly binding for you to be strong for your kids, maybe its your faith and the prayers of those who love you, helping you!!
What a selfish thing for Leon to do so soon after the birth of little Lily. I hope and pray that you can continue to be strong Jolene and continue to be a tower for your two little girls. Your an inspiration for me in so many ways and i am so sad that such a dreadful heart breaking situation is happening to you.
Big ((((((((((((Cyber hugs)))))))))))
Gasp! OMG! I wish there was something I could say to fix all this for you, or at least make it a little easier. I am so sorry. I wish you all the strength in the world.
Jolene, I was shocked to read your news. I pass my love thoughts and prayers to you and your girls.
People come into our lives for reason sometimes those reasons my not be clear and the hurt when they leave can seem to be intolerable, but Leon has given you the greatest gift of all that of Katie ans Lily.
Though all the pain and hurt always remember the gift of love he has given you.
It is this gift that will help you get through these horrible times with all the different emotions that will happen to you.
This precious gift is your shining light.
Thought thoughts prayers and love go to you and your babies.
Like so many others, I am a reader, a fan of your blog but not a commenter.
I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling right now but as you can plainly see, as well as the love and support you would no doubt be receiving from your friends and family, you have plenty of "cyber" support too.
Wishing you all the strength you need to get through this very difficult time in your life.
WOW I am absolutely shocked! I am a lurker dicovered your blog a month or two ago! HUGE cyber HUGS to you
Hi Jolene im glad to see that you have blogged and you know that my thoughts are with you at this very hard time.It was great chatting to you the other night and i have had you in my thoughts hoping and praying that you would get threw this okay.Yo really do have those two beautiful girls to cherish and oneday you will be strong again .Hugs to you chick and to the girls they are so wseet.Take care Kerry xx
Thinking of you and your gorgeous girls at this time Jolene. Take care of yourself.
Thinking of you and your girls through this heart-breaking time, and praying for strength for you to help you get through this horrible ordeal.
Lily is getting more adorable by the minute! Big hugs, Kelly
Jolene my thoughts and prays are with you and your two precious princesses. Stay strong and remember that you have these two gorgeous little people in your life that will need you more than ever now. Hugs and kisses during this difficult time for you. Sonia x
Dearest Jolene
I'm so sorry to hear your heart breaking news. I wish all the best for you & your beautiful girls.
I am yet another "lurker" and admirer of your blog- I get so much inspiration from you. When I read your latest post the tears just started rolling. I realise that there is nothing that anyone can do or say to make the pain go away or ease, but as you have requested prayers I will be on my knees for you. I am only 23, and have been married for 3 years, so my life experience can in no way give me insight to how you are feeling at this time. I just pray that God will bless you with whatever you stand in need of at this time, and that the love of those around you will be a beacon of light to you in this dark time.
With much love, from South Africa
Jessamine
Jolene, like all the others who commented I am shocked by your news. I don't think that anyone who follows your blog had seen this coming. Your blog is always filled with so much love and happiness, that I actually had to read your post over again to make sure I had read it right, I just couldn't grasp it.
I realise that no words can make you feel any better now, so I'll just leave you with by saying that my thoughts will be with you and your two beautiful girls. The fact that you started this post with such horrible news and went straight on to sharing those wonderful moments in your life with Katie and Lily shows me that you are one strong woman.
Take care of yourself and your little ones Jolene, and know that your online-friends are supporting you the best we can.
Hugs xxx Peggy
You don't know me, I only know you from your blog that I come and see every other day... This is so sad... Lili is just a baby... It's hard to understand why men leave like that...
You seem like a strong woman, I hope everything works out for you and the girls...
hugs and kisses...
Annie
Jolene, As the others have said you never know what is going on in someone's life! Take comfort in those gorgeous girls of you and whilst every day is so so so hard, love them and absorb yourself in being the best mum you can be to them.
It is Leon's loss, he doesn't get to be loved by you and your girls each day, he is missing out, not you!
{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}} and thinking of you everyday:)
OMG Jolene,I am a huge fan of your scrappin and have been popping into your blog for years ..you are so inspirational to me..when I have just read your blog I am in shock..I don't know what to say but keep your chin up and be strong..hugs to you and your 2 gorgeous girls.Suz x
Joelene,
thoughts and prayers are with you all. A day at a time and each day will get a little easier.
thinking of you.
Ali
Jolene, I have no idea what to say, I am in complete shock, I am so terribly sorry and I can't even imagine what pain you are in right now. Your girls are an absolute blessing and I am sure they will get you through this. xo
Hi Jolene,
I'm a blog lurker. I read it regularly as I love your photos and scrapping.
I was incredibly sad to hear of your news. Life is tough with a baby as is, let alone this. My thoughts are with you. May this time pass quickly so the pain dims quickly.
Another lurker that will surely have you in her prayers.
Jolene
I've been following your blog for ages, but never left a comment before.
I'm ever so sorry to read what you have written here today. It's heartbreaking. I wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain.
Big hugs to you and your precious little ones.
Oh Jolene,my heart goes out to you at such a tough time.I hope things work out for the best for you all.
Sending lots of love to you and the girls xx
Jolene, I am so sorry to read this. Take care of yourself and those 2 beautiful little girls. I understand how you are feeling as my husband of almost 20yrs walked out on me 4mths ago. Keep in touch with your friends - they are a great support - use them if you need to. Apparently time will heal the heartache, in the meantime focus on your and your girls. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
Jolene, just a short message to say I am praying for you and your girls. You must know that by the amount of messages left and those who read your blog but haven't left a message, is that you are dearly loved by many from all parts of the world and I am sure that they are all praying and thinking of you all at this time. May God give you the strength and peace that you need at this time.
Dear Jolene
Here's another lurker and admirer of your work. I have been following your blog for a long time. So I almost feel like I know you and your beautiful girls.
I'm so very sad to read this and I'm sending you a big cyber hug all the way from Denmark.
You and your gorgeous girls will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I have no words of wisdom but from what I can see you are a strong women. Continue to stay strong and be who you are.
Jolene, baby Lily is getting so big and shes just adorable!!!
Your so lucky to have two precious girls for you to love and cherish!!
I know you are going through so much now with Leon. I hope in time he will come to his senses and make peace with you.
Take one day at a time, seek help, talk to others, use your family to support you!!
Will pray for your family continually!!
My Regards to YOU and your GIRLS!!
Jolene I feel for you and what you and the girls are going through. It has got to be very tough and probably feels like a bad dream you can't wake up from.
Please call out if you ever need anything.
Take care,
Sares x
Joleen ek is heeltemal verstom, EK KAN DIT NIE GLO NIE!
Ek kan nie eens begin om te weet hoe jy voel nie, al wat ek vir jou kan doen is om te bid dat die Here jou die krag sal gee om deur hierdie mielike tyd te kom. Ons weet nie hoekom sulke dinge gebeur nie, maar behou assebleif jou geloof sodat jy sterker en gelukkiger deur hierdie tyd kan kom.
Jou dogters is pragtig en ek is seker hulle sal met hulle onbaadsigte liefde jou deur hierdie tyd help.
Jy is in my gebed, sterkte
Linda
Jolene,
I've been following your blog for ages, but never left a comment before.
I have no idea what to say, I am in complete shock.
Wishing you all the strength you need to get through this very difficult time in your life.
Big hugs to you and your precious little ones.
Astrid Zwaan
The Netherlands.
I know you don't know me, but feel compelled to leave a messgae of love and support...from what i read here you are a strong, beautiful amazing woman. I will pray for you and your family...
So Sorry to hear your sad news. Life does'nt always go to plan. Sometimes it does'nt even make sense. But know that there is lots of us thinking of you and knowing you will get through this. It will make you stronger and make what you have (2 beauiful and healthly daughters) even more preious. God Bless.
Jane
hi jolene
absolutely gobsmacked at the recent happenings in your life. have read all the comments left already by other readers and friends of yours and its obvious how much support you have around you, even though at times you would feel quite alone, you have got some very special people who are there for you. take care of the 3 of you, will keep checking back here to see how you are going :)
p.s. love the fancy pants lo of katie! and bubs is getting such a cute personality. :)
Kate xo
Jolene I am so sad to hear what is happening to you at the moment life can be so unfair! I cant believe he could just up and leave!!! men can be such arseholes!!! Be strong within yourself and for the girls its going to be tough but just hang in there. having been there myself I got through with the love and support of family and friends ..it took time...but it will get better. many hugs
Jolene, I am completly shocked to read your post, and my heart goes out to you. Sending you lots of love and hugs to you and the girls
anna xx
Jolene, Girl my heart is breaking for you. No doubt you will hear so many stories and "solutions" to deal with this crisis in your life, but girl, seriously take each day as it comes, love your girls, they will be needing you oh so much, and I hope so much that in time, things sort themselves out for you all. Take care and best wishes... you're in my thoughts xo Kris
Hey Jolene
I was begining to worry about you when you hadn't posted for a while but I had no idea that this was why. I am sooo sorry for you sweetie. I cannot imagine what you are going through and how hard it must be to just keep going on. Let those two gorgeous little girls keep you busy and I hope that in time you can find some peace. Please let me know if there is anythign I can do!
Love FI
Oh Jolene Im so sorry !! You deserve better then that girl !! Be strong ! Your blog friends are here with you !!! xoxoxo Tina
Jolene,
I have been reading your blog for a few months now and have never left a message. I don't know what to say except I am thinking of you and your beautiful little girls. Maybe in time he will come to his senses, but if he doesn't you will be strong enough to deal with that. Go ahead and let youself cry, you have to let that emotion out! (BIG HUG) ~ Ashley
Jolene I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through {{hugs}} I really feel for you and your beautiful girls
Take care and stay strong {{hugs}}
Krissy xx
oh jolene i cant beleive what ive read! i know how you feel as craig left me three months ago...but it would be so much more as lily is so small, i hope your coping ok, i know its hard, use the support that is offered from family and friends. Your two girls are such shining lights, take strenght from them..one day at a time. one day at a time...i was looking at some photos the other day of jack and katie at your house, was hoping to scrap them very soon...francine..
Joelene, I hope you can take some comfort in everyone's support and the love of your girls and parents will see you through. It must have been hard to blog that most personal and painful event. Perhaps time and love (and some brain-explosion LOL) will bring him back to you if that's what you want, but only you will know what's best for your family. Take care
xx
gigi
Oh Jolene I was saddened to read your blog post - but then I had a big smile at the gorgeousness of your little baby munchkin.
Sending *be strong* vibes your way.
Hugs
Tammy
Jolene, I check your blog everyday and never leave a comment either but i was extremely sad about your news, I really hope that you have your family and friends very close by you to give comfort. I can see that your cyber friends are there for you too, that includes me. I don't really know what else to say...be and stay strong for your adorable little girls, keep faith.
Dear Jolene, I have a little one too - 4 months. I can't imagine doing it on my own - it would seem insurmountable. I do pray - and my prayers will be for you and your girls. If nothing else take for these posts that you are not alone in spirit.
Hi Jolene... been following your blog since last year. I've seen you pregnant and gave birth... this news is a total shock! I pray things will be okay very soon... God is good my dear!
Oh Jolene I am so distressed for you and the girls...have been thinking of you every day and wishing it would all come good. I just pray that things will be happier for you one day. Sending you love and hugs.xxx
Just sending you loads of hugs and *MWAH!!!! I have never posted but have followed since doing a Scrappin Patch challenge of your style...love love love your work!
So prays coming your way from me. I hope the days/nights and moments get less painful.
hugs again sweets
Hi Jolene
Yet another reader of your blog that has never left a message. I enjoy reading your blog and seeing your beautiful scrapbook pages. I also enjoy your sketch blog as well. I actually saw you at Currumbin Wildlife Sanctuary last friday. We are from Vic. and were holidaying on the gold coast. I recognised Katie from your scrapbooking layouts. She is even more gorgeous in real life. My husband talked me out of saying hello as he said you'd obviously have no idea who I am. I wish I had said hello and if I had know what was going on in your world, I would have given you a hug too. I am praying for you and your girls and hoping that your pain somehow eases.
Emily
Jolene,
I was so totally blown away by this news also!!! I have been a blog lurker since joining CIS, and feel I know you through your gorgeous layouts.
I really do hope and pray that it all works out for you!
Keep strong :)
Take care
Laura xoxoxo
Oh sweetheart, I am so sorry that you have to go through this!! Thinking of you. Love and hugs for you and your gorgeous girls!
wishing you strength!
Big big hugs!!!
dear Jolene,
so so sorry to hear about your separation. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your little girls.
Hi Jolene!! I am one of them that visits your blog and not leaving a comment!! So sorry to hear what you are going thru! I know you'll be strong for your children sake. God bless. Xoxo
Leaving you a verse: 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, ' plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' Jeremiah 29:11
Another long-time lurker and fan of your blog/work, and I am keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers. I am SO sorry you are having to deal with this - the transition with a new baby is difficult by itself but this just makes it so much more stressful. *HUGS* to you and your girls!
Hi Joelene
I am also a big big fan and lurker of here for ages,and was totally saddened by your news. It will get easier, in time, its an old cliche, but it will. You are a very brave and strong woman,and if theres anything to help yourself, your little gorgeous girls get through this trying time, it will be the strength it takes to get up and face another day especially when you dont want to. Dont be ashamed to ask for help either - a counsellor can really help.
My heartfelt hugs are being sent your way.
Love Becky XX
Jolene
Just a short note to say so sorry to read the news, I hope that he will come to his senses & realise that he will be missing so many beautiful moments with 3 very special girls ! I know from experience that having a 2nd child add a whole new dimension to your family unit & although you think you've been there and done that, the whole dynamic changes. Be strong & know you are in my thoughts. Love to you all !
Sterkte
Tilla - ek volg al jare jou blog maar kom nooit by comments uit nie !
Jolene a big big kisses and a special prayer for you
Dear Jolene, my heart stopped when I read your post. I can relate to the feelings your going trough and they are very difficult. (I went trough a seperation when my son was just 13 months)But as time goes by, it well get better. Your beautiful girls will help you get trough this, because a smile on there faces will light up your day and give you the strenght to go on. I wish you and your girls all the best!! You are in my thoughts.
I'm praying for you Jolene. Don't forget the Lord is with you. It's so neat to see that you're there for your babies. Stay strong.
Oh Jolene...! I didn't read this until now. I am so so sorry to hear this. You'll be in my thoughts...! Many hugs!
Ohh Jolene thats heartbreaking to read... my thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful girls...
Hugs...Mardi xx
I wish that I could give you a hug.
I'll admit that I've never visited your blog before, but I was bored, scrolling google, and saw it. And you just seem so hurt and upset...
I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better, but I can't even begin to imagine how much you're hurting right now. I'm so proud that you manage to hold it together for your little girls. They're adorable, by the way.
Feel better <3
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