Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Birthday done and over! Party still to come!

WOW, I never imagined how unbelievably heart wrenching my birthday would be.  I could care less about the age, but I just really badly missed that someone special to wish me a gorgeous birthday.  Sure everyone spoiled me :)  My Mummy and cousin came over to keep me busy busy and help with the kids.  I got some gorgeous flowers.  But my heart was just utterly empty and missing someone so incredibly badly.  He did call to say Happy Birthday, but I couldn't bare it so just broke down and cried and cried and cried, so I didn't hear from him for the rest of the day - can't hardly blame him lol.

SO I'm so glad it is over.  I'm trying to recover today and get my strength back together, bit hard, but i'll get there.

Those 'firsts' are always the extra hard ones, first day, first weekend, first birthdays - next challenge - first xmas!!

So here I am - a whole 30 years old!!  Blessed with two super gorgeous girls in my life!




Not much else happening here atm.

Hope you all have a gorgeous week.

15 comments:

Monique said...

Bless you, Jolene. I am so sorry you had such a sad "first" - I hope you still had a reasonably good day.
Take care:0)

TatumW said...

big hugs for you....i am so bummed that i didn't get to give u a real one when we were up there, it was a seriously jam packed week. xx

CreativeMe68 said...

Big hugs to you Hunnie...Wishing you a Belated Birthday and I hope that your party is the best night of your life...I am sure it will be really special! Love the photos of you and your girls! Luv Shaz oxxo

Romy said...

Congrats Jolene. I hope you've had a wonderful birthday together with your two gorgeous girls.

Tilla said...

Jolene
Wishing you just the best for the rest of the year and may you go from strength to strength !
My heart just breaks for you - but you made it through this and I'm sure you will be good through your first Xmas as well. Lovely photos of you and the girls.
Have a fantastic pink party !

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday gorgeous girl !!!
Thinking of you !! Enjoy your pink party !! xx Tina

Leeann Pearce said...

Happy belated birthday jolene.... your a beautiful person and an awesome mother to two gorgeous girls...and a sensational scrapper!!!!

Happay Mommay aka Happay Scrappay said...

that is such a heartbreaking story. Happy Birthday from the Internets. Hoping that you have many sunny days ahead to drive the dark stormy clouds and sad days away. Your daughters and you are beautiful.

Jenny Dauth said...

Hang in there Jolene, I too am facing my first Xmas without my DH of 20yrs (he left in Feb). Still very hard but using the love of family and friends does help a bit. Hugs to you and your girls.

Anonymous said...

Oh darling, bug hugs! I know how tough you've been doing it lately, every first is such a big milestone isn't it? Will give you a for real hug at your party. Enjoy the rest of the week - you young and beautiful thing!

Treesa said...

Well ur doing awesome cause i dont think i would survive if my man left me n the kids. Just remember how special YOU are...mum to two gorgeous girls and majorly talented scrapper! be strong...u wil find another someone special to spoil u...hugs xx

Sophia said...

Happy BIrthday, sorry it was hard on you. Sending BIG hugs your way...enjoy your party!!!

kathie said...

A belated happy thirtieth, Jolene! I'm sorry to hear that it was a painful milestone for you.

That photo of the three of you is just wonderful! They really are beautiful little girls. I can't believe how fast they are both growing up.

Aussie TM5 Thermomixer said...

Happy belated birthday Jolene. I'm really sorry to hear that it was a difficult day for you. You are such a strong person and are so so blessed to have two precious daughters, don't ever forget that. Take care xx

Jodi Dolbel said...

Happy Belated Birthday Jolene. I was wondering how you would feel on your birthday being a "first". Next one will be that little bit easier...
Christmas will be hard and i will be thinking of you!!! Your so lucky you have your gorgeous little girls with you.....